I have spent the last few weeks in a bit of retrospect I have learned that I am not devoting enough time to myself. I give more of myself to others than I truly have at times. I have been neglecting my passions: writing, photography, and moments of simple indulgence. I don't do things for myself any more because I have been seeing them as things that aren't important and the resources for those things are more often than not redirected to things for others. So I have felt completely drained when I should be allowing myself moments to recharge and indulge in me alone.
I am an avid reader, and I have been attempting to keep up with my review blog, and that has been going well. Aside from a few slips and a couple of weeks where I have not posted anything save for things that I had committed myself to. I am behind on reviews, I am behind on quite a few things. It is time that I stop making excuses and start getting things done that I need to get done. I am the only one that can be held accountable for the promises that I make.
Perhaps I take too much on to myself, I have an inability to say no. I need to learn to use that word a bit more to others and saying yes to myself a bit more. I need to restart my meditation time, be it in the shower with music blaring, or laying in my bed thirty minutes before bed to center myself and ensure that I am in the right headspace for when I wake in the morning and I can continue to live my life in a way that benefits everyone and especially me.
In the last six months, I have also become a member at a Christian church. As you know from reading this blog, I was raised Catholic and ultimately my belief system is much more diverse and cannot be laid claim to a singular label. I pull from a variety of sources for my spirituality and I am as of yet, finding myself connected with this group of people - however there is quite a bit about me that this group does not know.
I am a proud member of the LGBT community, and I do not adhere to the views that homosexuality is a sin. We were all created in the image of a loving deity, and no mater who or what we are...we are loved and adored.
I need to remember the following things this year and in the years to come:
1. It is okay to say no
2. I am loved
3. I am allowed me time
4. I cannot solve all the problems
These are just a few of the things I need to remember, but they are by far some of the most important of them.